FEAR

the level of my self-esteem toward my dream...

mind trip from hintmag

http://www.hintmag.com/shoots/multi/mindtrip/mindtrip.html

fear is the biggest enemy for everyone. it is my turn to learn how to defeat that fear in me for the first time in my life. i tell you, first time for everything... what is this? why do i feel like i cannot even move one foot forward than the other? not even one step?? it feels as if my feet were laid completely flat on the ground with 1,000 tons of leaden chain wrapped around my ankles... it's just not movable! that one step seems the hugest stride that i could ever imagine possible. because of this pathetic reason, i stayed away from sketching, sewing, posting new blogs, and to make matters worse, away from clothes... i completely blocked out everything. i really started to wonder if i have what it takes to become what i want to be... i am truly experiencing that fear is not from above. i really need HIS help to defeat this mess. i wanted to be bluntly honest in the blog at least... i thought that this confession could bring something good in me... courage and confidence, perhaps?