We are the World

it's just wonderful and beautiful lyrics. it inspired me to create this.

FEAR

the level of my self-esteem toward my dream...

mind trip from hintmag

http://www.hintmag.com/shoots/multi/mindtrip/mindtrip.html

fear is the biggest enemy for everyone. it is my turn to learn how to defeat that fear in me for the first time in my life. i tell you, first time for everything... what is this? why do i feel like i cannot even move one foot forward than the other? not even one step?? it feels as if my feet were laid completely flat on the ground with 1,000 tons of leaden chain wrapped around my ankles... it's just not movable! that one step seems the hugest stride that i could ever imagine possible. because of this pathetic reason, i stayed away from sketching, sewing, posting new blogs, and to make matters worse, away from clothes... i completely blocked out everything. i really started to wonder if i have what it takes to become what i want to be... i am truly experiencing that fear is not from above. i really need HIS help to defeat this mess. i wanted to be bluntly honest in the blog at least... i thought that this confession could bring something good in me... courage and confidence, perhaps?

a glimpse of my brain...

i like to do brainstorming to straighten out what this chaotic thoughts, ideas and feelings in my brain from time to time. most of the time, this method of sorting out doesn't give me the answer that i've been dying to have, but that doesn't concern me at all. through the process, my feelings and thoughts are forcefully gauged out from the little universe of my own brain. on the paper, everything comes out visually clear that what the whole dynamics of my thoughts are. i couldn't even finish the whole thing today, but realize that there are many directions that i can take at this point. sometimes in life, it is important to be astray, facing thousands of arrows sticking and pointing out every directions for you to discover yourself, i believe...